Akalain mo nga naman...

Makalipas ang ilang libong taon, naalala kong may BLOG nga pala ako. Hahahahaha. Marami ng nangyaring kababalaghan ang kagaguhan sa buhay ko.

1. Pumasa ako ng Board Exam. Oo. Akalain mo nga naman, nakadali din. Chamba or kung ano man yun, feeling ko destiny ko talaga ang one time take lang. (Oo. Mejo mayabang ako.) Pero pinaghirapan ko naman yun. Nalungkot lang ako (at si Maja rin) kasi hindi kami nakapasok ng Top 10. So sad.

2. Nagkatrabaho na ko agad tapos ng board at ng 4 na taong pagaaral ko sa Narsing, pero ang naging hanap-buhay ko ay wala sa kalingkingan ng inaral ko. Call Center. Oo. Call Girl ako. Bayaran at kumakayod ng buto and ginagamit ang lalamunan sa gabi.

3. Umalis ako sa unang trabaho ko na yun sa wag-na-nating-banggitin-pa dahil TOXIC yung account. Nung nag-pasa ako ng resignation form, sabi ng boss ko, baka raw magagawan pa ng paraan, kasi CHINECK niya daw at MAGANDA daw ang record ko sa kumpanya (BTW, Top 1 ako sa Training namin dun. Yun lang) pero tapos na ang training at kung ang sinasabi niyang magandang record ko ay yung nasa floor na ako, sasagutin ko sana talaga yung Boss ko na 'Tang'na Boss, wala namang bastusan.' Get's mo? Puros kalokohan lang ako dun.

4. Bagong trabaho. Sa Makati (narining mo ba si Binay sa utak mo? 'Sa Makati..') Masaya ako sa trabaho ko ngayon, bukod sa hindi stressful, maganda ang ambiance at environment. Pero siyempre, hindi pa rin to sa linya ng tinapos kong kurso kaya malamang, di rin ako magtagal dito.

5. Hindi na ako nakakapag choir. Eto seryosong bagay. Nakakadepress talaga. Sakto talaga yung song line na 'Don't it always seem to go, that you don't know what you got till it's gone..'


BTW, nasa opisina ako ngayon at imbes matulog eh inuna ko talaga to.

Yun lang. Akalain mo nga naman.

Play Me!! Play Me!!

I have this 'Fling' thingy at work.. and woopsie, I did end up as 'the other woman' Gee. Greeaaattt!
Am I proud? No. What sucks more is that the Original girl is a friend.. not a dear one, but still, a friend. Argh. Slap me now. Wake me up. I just want to have fun. But yeah, it's not so much fun specially that I am very much aware that I'm stepping on a friend's own happiness..

It's a beautiful mess. See. I still think it's beautiful even if it's a mess!!! What have gone to my head, I do not know.


Your style is quite selective, Though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear'
Cause here we are, here we are

One Fish Two Fish

I created this several years ago and originally a saula fiction. It's not Jane Austen-ish so forgive my soul. haha..

and I didn't use Monique here kasi my original character talaga is a little boy. At naisip ko yung scene ni Erika with Teddy and baby Tj walking for the firt time.. hehe..



DISCLAIMER: I do not own any of the characters mentioned (Erika, Tj nor Barney!!). This is a work of fiction and just a mere product of my wild imagination. Any similarities to anyone's reality is purely coincidental. However I would like to c;larify that One Fish Two Fish is partly the title of Dr. Seuss book released on 1960's.

An Alternate Universe Story that takes on Erika and Tj,



Erika's POV:

All i needed this morning was a half hour alone, thirty minutes of peace & quiet to help preserve my sanity. No mom-do-this, mom-i-need-that, mom-he-bit-me, mom-i-spilled-the-juice-on-the-couch. Just me, a hot Calgon bath, and nothingness. I shouldn't dream so big.

After getting the two oldest off to school, i settled the youngest in front of Barney & said,

"honey, listen closely. Your mommy is going to crack. She's losing her marbles. She's teetering on the edge of permanent personality damage. This is because she has a children. Are you following me so far?"

He nodded absently while singing, "barney is a dinosaur in our imagination..."

"good. Now, if you want to be a good little boy, you'll sit right here & watch barney while mommy takes a nice, hot , quiet, peaceful, rake-me-away bath. i don't want you to bother me. I want you to leave me alone. For thirty minutes, I don't want to see or hear you. got it?"

Nod.

"Good morning boys & girls..." I heard the purple wonder say.

I headed to the bathroom w/ my fingers crossed.
I watched the water fill the tub and watched the mirror & window steam up. I watched as the water turn blue from my bath beads and got in.

I heard a knock on the door.

"mom?..mom? are you in there mom?!.."

I learned long ago that ignoring my children does not make them go away.

"yes,..Im in here. What do you want?"

There was a long pause while Tj tried to decide what he wanted..

"umm,can i have snack?"

"you just had breakfast! can't you wait a few minutes?"

"noooo! im dying!! i need snack right now!!!"

"fine. You can have box of raisins."

I heard him pad off to the kitchen, listened as he pushed chairs & stools around trying to reach the raisin shelf, felt the floor vibrate when he jumped off the counter,& heard him run back to the tv room.

"Hi susie! Can you tell me what the color of the grass is?...."

Knock.knock,knock...

"mom?..mom?...Are you in there, mom?!"

Sigh. "yes im still in here. What do you need now?

Pause."umm, I need to take a bath, too!."

Riiiiight.

"honey, can't you wait till I'm done?"

the door opened just crack.

"noo., I really need to take some now,. I'm dirty."

"you're always dirty. Since when do you care?"

The door opened all the way.

"i really need to take a bath, mom."

"no you don't! go away."

He stood in the middle of the bathroom & started taking off his pj's.

"I'll just get in w/ you & take bath too.."

"no! You will not get in w/ me & take a bath! I want to take my own bath!..i want you to go away & please leave me alone even just for 15 minutes.."

I began to sound like a 3 year old kid w/ whom i was arguing w/.
He climbed onto the edge of the tub, balancing carefully,& said. "i'll just get in w/ you, okay, mom?.."

I started to shriek, "no! that is not okay! I want my own bath, all by myself! i don't want to share! i want to be alone!.."

He thought for a moment & said, "okay, I'll just sit here & you can read me a book. I won't get in, mom, until you're done." He flashed me a knock-down charming smile.

So i spend my morning alone-time reading One Fish Two Fish to a naked three -year-old who sat on the edge of the tub w/ his chin resting on his knees, arms wrapped around his bent legs, slight smile on his face.

I thought to myself,. "why fight it? It won't be long before I have all the alone-time i want. And then I'll probably feel bad about not having any more together-time."

Finitto.


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i don't miss you at all.

I'm a very vocal lil creature when it comes to teeling people that I miss them, a little too much at times, even.

But anyhow, I heard this song as I was browsing imeem and immediately fell in love with it. It's called I Don't Miss You At All by Norah Jones..

As I sit and watch the snow
Fallin' down
I don't miss you at all
I hear children playin' laughin' so loud
I don't think of your smile

So if you never come to me
You'll stay a distant memory
Out my window I see lights going dark
Your dark eyes don't haunt me

And then I wonder who I am
Without the warm touch of your hand

And then I wonder who I am
Without the warm touch of your hand
As I sit and watch the snow
Fallin' down

I don't miss you at all
I don't miss you at all
I don't miss you at all

Dont miss you at all - Norah Jones

long day is over..

If you feel like really tired from all day's work and all.. and you'd want to listen to something real soothing as you relax your aching back to a real soft bed or couch. This is the song you should listen to.

It's called The Long Day is Over by Norah Jones.

Feeling tired
By the fire
The long day is over

The wind is gone
Asleep at dawn
The embers burn on

With no reprise
The sun will rise
The long day is over

The Long Day Is Over - Norah Jones

..love-ly love love..

I am currently in love with this guy. And in my beautiful mind I am dating him.. and he's taking care of me. *dreamy state..*

*sighs*

*sighs*

*sheepish smile..*

he's Richard Poon. ;)

wuss wuss

I love conflict, but I hate the pangs.
I love the sea, but I'm afraid to swim.
I love to talk, but no one bothers to listen.
When I'm happy, I horribly miss being sad.
Yes, I am ironic.
And I'm certain no one understands..
Do I give that much of a damn?
you guess..

I would still start my mornings with a cup of coffee.


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I know you..but not as much as I hope I do..
Just like nobody really bothered to delve deeper through the mystery of your existence..
The evening sky tiptoes in and the indigo horizon is faintly visible..
I asked the sky if ever I will really get to reach you..the fragile you..
but little stars glitter no reply.
I might never know the answer..
but at the moment,
I am strong and I'm still willing to try..

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belated Happy Nanay's Day..

I was a lil subtle when I greeted my mom yesterday, still, I know she felt the sincerity of it. We were watching SOP yesterday and they were singing with their moms. Jaya sang 'On This Side Of Me by Corinne May', I was amazed really because I just realized yesterday that yeah, it could be a dear song for our moms.


Anyhow, if it's about songs, I guess this one, though not my composition (hell yeah..haha), I would like to dedicate it to my mom.

Nanay
Joey Benin

Pagmamahal at pag-aaruga ang nakamtan naming biyaya
Hindi nagdamot ang tadhana
Bigay ka sa min ng Diyos

Mula pagkabata hanggang paglaki
Ikaw ay lagi naming katabi
Kahit saan pa man maparoon
Ikaw ay nandoroon

Nanay, Nanay
Wala ng hihigit pa sa 'yong pag-akay at pag-aaruga
Nanay, Nanay
Bukod-tangi ang pag-ibig mo
Kami'y buong pusong nagpapasalamat sa 'yo

Pagmamahal at pag-aaruga ang nakamtan naming biyaya
Kahit saan pa man maparoon
Ikaw ay nandoroon

Nanay, Nanay
Wala ng hihigit pa sa 'yong pag-akay at pag-aaruga
Nanay, Nanay
Bukod-tangi ang pag-ibig mo
Kami'y buong pusong nagpapasalamat sa 'yo

Salamat sa iyo
Kami'y buong pusong nagpapasalamat sa 'yo

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Nanay, i love you more than you could possibly fathom..and there's not one prayer I have uttered for as long as I could remember that I didn't include you and tatay in. I know I could be a real pain at times but you still me unconditionally (like you have a choice, really..haha). Thank you. I know it will not suffice, but still. Thank you.

word salad, anyone?

why the title?

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So review is almost over. Gee. I could never really picture what for real would happen to me afterwards. I mean, yes, I have plans and all but it's all hazy pictures at the moment.. e.g. Me working not in the medical field YET but on a call center..maybe.

Finally, leaving SJC for GOOD. Quite huge step if I visualize it. No not huge, humongous. I'm scared as shit. Seriously.. SERIOUSLY!! I'm leaving my comfort zone. Steppin outside the box. My knees are wobbly. And what sucks the most is I have so little control over it. Maybe that's why I kind of set my mind that I'm not to work on hospital like imediately, like now NOW. Hell No! What am I nuts? (I could literally hear Prof Silva uttering those last four words..lmao!) I have yet to gain THAT much confidence.. Yes, I know I have my capabilities and it's not like I'm dumb or something or stupid even, No I most certainly am not. I just.. I'm scared.

Getting past the scary thoughts and all, now the word is lugubrious. Being an artist, that is me. haha.. But yes, how on earth will I not miss the grounds of that wee-bit of a campus we have? It was there. All there. Laid-out in the open all the memories--bitter, sweet, fun.. feel free to use/include other trite you could think of pertaining to memories.. And the people I have grown to hate and love.

The graduation day did not really put this toll of mood on me since I was darn confident I'd still see 'em all..my feet will still drag me to the campus because of the review. But now the curtain's finally about to close.

I must bid the warmest good-bye. And yes, there is good in good-byes.

Good night....... *yawns*

don't go far off..

I asked Annel to email some of her favorite poems--


and I fell in love with this one. =)


Don't Go Far Off


Don't go far off, not even for a day, because --
because -- I don't know how to say it: a day is long
and I will be waiting for you, as in an empty station
when the trains are parked off somewhere else, asleep.

Don't leave me, even for an hour, because
then the little drops of anguish will all run together,
the smoke that roams looking for a home will drift
into me, choking my lost heart.

Oh, may your silhouette never dissolve on the beach;
may your eyelids never flutter into the empty distance.
Don't leave me for a second, my dearest,

because in that moment you'll have gone so far
I'll wander mazily over all the earth, asking,
Will you come back? Will you leave me here, dying?

 -- Pablo Neruda

aloha..lo..

I would like to finally say something about my life:

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Gee. My brain is empty. (not a news!!)

anyhow, let's see.. hmm. I would try my might to capture my thoughts, piece by piece..

~ I am currently listening to acoustic version of Bluer than Blue. Why? Just because.

~ I miss certain people. Just certain creatures. Darn. Waaahh.. I misssssss yoouuuuuuuuuu.

~ Maj did her recall regarding PRC filing. My thoughts :Chaos..Chaos...chaos. And more chaos.

~ Review is still on-going. I am ambivalent. And I know, it's not a very positive thing.

~ I can't freakin wait to get a job and work my ass off and earn huge bucks and BUY souls!!!! argh!

~ I need to pray more often. I need more faith. I need strength. I need..I need..

~ Today was a so-so day. I studied OB and to our, i dunno if you could really call it luck, the exam was canceled. Nice. (not!)

~ People is better than no people.

~ So I told my people last night that if ever I would have to undergo a surgery, they should make sure that their asses are available to be beside me because I need them to be strong for me and to hold my hand, if ever. They do not have the right be scared in front my face because I swear to God I will kill them.

~ and some people should grow up. Seriously.

~ and yes, this is my own space, my blog, my thoughts. It's only fair that I get to be self-centered here. A narcissists on my own little world. Bleh.

dot dot dot

~So it has been literally ages since the last time I have gone mad and wrote something on here. Haha. . Well, I'm lucid now so I'm grabbing this rare moment to finally update you guys about me. I know you could care less, really, but still. Lemme. haha..


For starters, after 4 long years of agony and suffering and sleepless nights, I finally graduated. Yay me! I was even able, to my shock, snag a performance award. Not that I'm bragging and rubbing it all of your face, but yeah, it was the infamous Best Performance in Head Nursing. Can you effing believe that? I mean I as well, was like 'Gee?!! holy freaking cow!!!' But it was all cool and fun and warm and all that feelings at once. Of course I gave back all the Praise and glory to Him. Without Him I'll be nothing.. a protozoan or bacteria or virus or fungi even. I also tried to express my gratitude to those people who probably had gone mad as well and voted me on that deliberation day. I owe you po BIG time. Thank you.


oh and to say that a LOT of things has happened to me this past few weeks would definitely be my understatement of the year. It was worse that a roller-coaster ride.. more than that.


I have committed such HUGE mistakes and I've been pretty much nothing except a disappointment to the people I've been trying to please, I guess.. well yeah. Just then that I realized how much regret one is be capable of having.. Seriously. I even had suicidal ideation. See?!!!! It was THAT BAD.


But thankfully, with His guidance and help and all the other people who have been nothing but a helping hand, I came out of the storm alive..and kicking asses!! ahaha... and I could never be thankful enough. I literally owe my life to them.. gawd.


I am still busy doing Board review but it's all cool. I haven't felt that taxed yet so yeah.. I'm not yet complaining.


As of this moment, I am happy and contented. Cheerios!!!

tipsy-doodle doo....

I'm effing bored.. so I'm just gonna blab and blab until you hate me or rather yourself for wasting your ever precious time reading my nonsense blah blah..


- My default mood is melancholy because it makes me appreciate happy-ness greatly. I guest despite being a smiley and touchy-feely kind of person, inside of me, I really am dark & twisted.

- I did not realize that I do have a shattered confidence in regard to my chosen profession until last night when I was talking to a dear friend and the topic was sorta brought up. I.. dunno. I'm havin a hard time forgiving myself for the stupidity I have showed the world.

and so for that, last night, as I was thinking real hard about my life that I shouldn't really be doing since it only complicates my thoughts even more, I had instead created a new literary piece of shit.

Prozac

Eternity--
I see no evidence of such.
I feel no evidence of happiness.
In this short yet long dimension,
where horizon and sky never met,
a never ending pain exists
between the world and me,
on life's journey and imaginary experiences.
I am wanting
of a would-be world in the deepest
of my cold soul,
of truth and not vagueness.
I am demented and sick.
I'm dreaming that I am numb.
A lifeless substance.
Pain-free creature.

memoirs.....

I am sharing this..yet again.

The infamous:

Ano bang Problema niyo?!!!!!!!!
March 8th, 2007

PUUUTTEEEKKKKK!!

di na kayo nakakatuwa ah…

ano ba? inggit ba kayo na mas matalino kami sa inyo?? i really REALLY don’t want to brag and rub the fact off your faces but you are so0o0o0o pushing it..

bitter people!!

would you just let it go already??

and you!! you BIATCH!!! DO YOU know that i am close to pulling your hair off to bring you back to your senses?!!!

gawd!!!! what you’re saying are TOO MUCH!!!

and i’m loosing it.

KAYO NA LANG ANG MAG-EVE MGA ADIK!!!

you…freakin small-brained creatures..!!!! GET A FREAKIN LIFE AND MIND YOUR DAMN BUSINESS!! WE DESERVE WHERE WE ARE RIGHT NOW AND YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA WHAT WE HAVE GONE THROUGH!! DAMNIT!! DAMNIT!!!!! DAMNIT!!! I AM SO0O0O0O FREAKIN MAD RIGHT NOW!!!!

UUURRRGGGHHHH!!!!!

I TRIED TO STAY CALM AND MAINTAIN MY COMPOSURE AND NOT TO ACT THIS WAY… BUT.. I HAVE TO FREAKIN VOICE OUT THE ANGER THAT’S CREEPING ALL OVER ME!

i hate you… and your whole damn section… sorry for those who aren’t as bad as those concern.. but you have your section’s name on your back.. and just hearing it irks me.. totally.

Fairness ba?!!*rolls eyes*

March 14th, 2007

bakit naman ganun?

i’m just wondering outloud ah.. hope i won’t offend anyone.

i am, or rather we, are just damn curious as to how on earth some names end up in Group A in the Review list.

seriously?

Is that like showing us, people, that your institution is afraid of those damn parents who can’t shut their gob when they absolutely have no idea what the real thing is going on?

chickenin’ out?

or, on the positive side, (as we are trying to view it…) you guys just want to give ‘em a real hard painful slap in their faces so you mixed them up with those in Group A?

i sure am hoping you’re targeting for the latter, cuz we’re trying to be positive here.. thinking fairness is so0o0o out of the picture these days.

remember, i’m just wondering outloud and i’m not measuring anything.

that’s all. (said in that infamous tone that Meryl Streep used as Miranda in Devil Wears Prada, with a shrug)

i hate you (rantings)

February 11th, 2007

i wrote this originally as a testimonial in Eve’s profile.. just thought i should post this here too cuz it’s something i find amusing now..haha..

you have to keep in mind that i still hate/(too strong for you?) dislike the person mentioned in the rantings below.. hahaha

that’s just her.. she’s a silent sadist.. SERIOUSLY!!!!! BWAAAAHHHHH!!!

‘ang EVE..

suki sa mga sadistang CI..

bakit ba sila nagexist??

yung tipong pag merong chance to make our life a lil easier.. they would like literally avoid that way just to make us more miserable and hopeless..

i hate how they would pretend that they do care.. WHEN IN FACT THEY DON’T!!!

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!!!!

dahil ba may posisyon ka at we are literally UNDER you.. you’ll grab every damn opportunity to make us suffer!!!! WE ARE ON OUR WITS’ END YOU BLIND/OLD TART!!!!!

AHHHH!!!

I SO0O0O0O0O FREAKIN WISH I COULD SPIT THESE WORDS IN YOUR FACE!!!!

you have no idea how you made our blood boil… seriously.. if looks could kill.. you’re prolly six feet under since wednesday morning…

EVE..KAYA NATIN TO!!!’

Guess where??

Guess where?


The moment I press the doorknob's lock, I feel that I am absolutely separated from the harsh reality of the world outside.

I find myself a light years away from my dreaded issues and fears.

I can peel-off the make-believe skin that I ALWAYS use to avoid such humiliating scrutiny of people who has a real small brain capacity.

It gives me a sense of security to dig the deepest part of my humanity, and the fact that I am not just another specimen of this oh-so-materialistic world.

It is the place where I create the most impossible.

I am extra-ordinary;
I am adored and loved;
I am the Queen and the princess of my little kingdom.

The only place where I confess my weaknesses and elucidation.

No eyes judge me. Nobody can tell me that I am wrong.

I cry, I scream. At times I hurt myself by pulling a fistful of my hair.

And then I would close my eyes for a second and unlock myself back to reality.

Smell the air fume that nauseate my nostrils, brush my hair, spray some Chritina Aguilera's Inspire, hoping against hope it would, indeed, inspire me, really.

Pretend that I am happy. That I am contented.

Believe that I know what love is. Start dreaming into fairytales.

I am an angel who lost my wings and is saved by a broomstick.

I am a witch. And I hate vegetables.


*sighs*

sa araw na ito..

Ang araw na ito..


today is a very special day kasi birthday ng aking one and only sis.. (take note, hindi kami blood-related.) hehe.. anyhow..

I've known her for umm..how many years na nga ba?? I can't quite put my finger into it.. memory gap nga naman oo.. but anyhow, she has been a real blessing in my life. Kagaya nga ng sinabi ko before sa texts, if my everyday here on erth is already a blessing, then her coming into my life is already a miracle.. as well as all the other special people in my life diba.

So sis, Annel, Annelvie, Amvie.. whatever they call you. Happy happy birthday my darling sister.

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Sa araw na ito ay umattend ako/kami ng seminar with former Dean Marco as the guest speaker.. siyempre sobrang saya ko di ba. Kasi crush ko talaga siya. At alam ata iyon ng buong Integrity. So?. He's really magaling naman talaga.. at andami ko sanang gustong i-recap with regards to everything na sinabi niya pero mostly ang tumatak sa kin na sinabi niya is, kung papasa ako or kami ng board exam, it's not because of all the reviews we've done and all (siyempre with its help but not entirely), it's simply because we deserve it. WE effing DESERVE IT!!!!!!!

Do i feel like I deserve to pass the board? OO naman. I want to stay positive from now on that I will pass the board.. pero siyempre, at the back of my head, there's still that lil voice murmuring 'what if hindi...what if you fail...' pero i'll try my best to keep that disgusting thought away.

I am positive. POSITIVE.


pero feeling ko medyo jinx na i'm already talking about the boards eh I haven't graduated pa nga.. hahahaha...

Ga-graduate ba ako??


Yan ang hindi ko pa alam... *stares blanky* haha..

kapalpakan at iba pa..

Panapananaw lamang..



Sa dinami-dami ng errors na pwedeng i-commit sa pinili kong propesyon, hindi siguro talaga maiiwasan na kung minsan (huwag naman sanang maging madalas) na makagawa ng mabigat na pagkakamali.

Naiinis ako sa sarili ko kung bakit hindi kayang higupin ng utak ko ang lahat ng imporamasyong kailangan ko habang buhay.

Nakakainis na may hanggan ang lawak ng kaisipan ng tao. Pero hindi ko rin naman pwedeng kwuestyunin ang mga bagay-bagay na ganoon kalalim. Naniniwala ako sa Taas at alam kong may dahilan ang bawat bagay.

Nakakalungkot lang, at nalulungkot ako at naiinis sa sarli ko na sa bawat kapalpakan ko sa linyang ito, buhay ng tao ang nakasalalay.

Palagi kong sinasabi na gusto ko ito,. na masaya ako sa direksyon na 'to. Na maalaga akong tao. Pero siguro nga, bubot pa ako. Hindi pa sapat ang kaalaman.. mahina.. mabuway.

Sana isang taon mula ngayon matatag na ako at karapat-dapat sa posibleng propesyon ko.

Gusto kong isigaw sa mundo, sa lahat ng tao kung gaano ang katangahang naipamalas ko sa araw na ito.. pero huwag na. Mag-iiba pa ang tingin nila kay 'Ghie'..

Tae di ba.

Sa yo, hindi mo ito mababasa at kampante ako.. salamat po. Sa gamilyang haba ng pasensiya at pang-unawa. Ang laki na ng utang ko sa iyo.

Chie-chie..tandaan natin. Enero bente, dos mil nuwebe..

happy new year!

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!

woo0o0o0o!!!

Sow how's everyone?? gawd.. I effing miss this. This. Exactly. Being able to pour out my non-sense blabs about my very chaotic yet beautiful life.

I wish everyone a happy and prosperous new year!!!

hmm.. short recap of what has been happening to moi:

My new year was a blast!! I mean its first day was.. I spent my January 1st with the people who are real close to my heart next to my mom and dad. Tapos nag exchange gifts pa kami! yahoo!! Siyempre yung paghahati ng taon nasa bahay ako at mega nanonood sa mga bonggang fireworks. I left the house at around 2 in the morning to go to Ate Beth's house.

and then all the fun ended. Classes had resumed, sadly. Hahaha.. Our first week, supposedly,
we would act as student c.i's sa mga level 1 students. Pero hindi yun ang nangyari. Darn talaga. Bale naka-set na kasi yung isp ko last year pa na magtuturo ako sa CMC West. But no. Sayang yung pera ko na nagastos sa pagpapaprint ng sandamakmak na requirements para dun sa nursing educ na yon. Pati effort ako!..Wala na. Pinull-out kami for some reason I still couldn't quite figure at nag-duty kami instead sa Cavie Naval. Ayos naman except for the fact na we were under real TOXICITY. Ang daming requirements anak ng tinapa.. Pero we're real thankful that Ma'am Gariza was real malambing with her 'girl..' term of endearment whenever she tries to call our attention.. "Oi girl yung charting mo asan na?" .. "girl yung mga meds ngayong twelve ha..".. "girl lahat ng gamot sa E-Cart gagawan niyo ng drug study ha.."..."girl....girl...girl..." By the end of our duty, I was effing sure I am a GIRL. hahahaha.. But no kidding, she's a sweetie naman pala.. I was thinking of the opposite.

Anyhow, so yun nga, and then yesterday we attended the seminar of Patience which was also held in GT. Without bitterness (although I do have the latter in me) maganda yung over-all seminar nila. Except may maingay talaga sa likod ng stage.. grabe. Hindi siguro sila aware na dinig sila talaga sa harap.. prolly yung mga C.I's sa back area, hindi sila aware dun. We were not given evaluation sheet. Most of us in our section at least. *glares*

The highlight for me of that effing seminar was not even when my dearest loved ma'am ada gave her closing remarks (I applaud though Patience for giving that part to ma'am Ada. We were talking on our table na parang naiiyak siya dun sa last part ng speech niya. hehe..) but when we were to go home na. Lmao!!! Sinabay kami ni Dean sa karuna niya. At dahil siyempre makapal ang mukha namin, nakisabay kami ng bonggang bongga. And what made me real joyous is dahil sa front seat nakaupo si mam ada. Shemay ang babait nila. Mega-watt smile of course si mam and she was even apologetic sa min kasi ihahatid pa daw siya ni dean.. parang sorry for delay ganun. Grabe! Eh samantalang okay nga lang kahit sa kanila pa mismo siya ihatid! hahaha.. at pinag-usapan namin ni Arianne yung LV bag ni mam ada. I think and I'm pretty sure orig yung bagelya niya. Tae.. napakamahal nun! Hindi risonable ang presyo. Just think, ang halaga ng bagelya na yun ay makakabayad na sa buong tuition fee ko ngayung second sem, kasama na pati review!!!! Sabagay..kung-afford niya naman di ba.. heheh..

So today, as I'm typing this up, kakatapos pa lang ng defense namin sa thesis. Shemay!!! Thank God!!! May mga corrections lang pero ok naman yung whole presentation. Mabait yung panel namin na si Dr. Quinio (umm..bilas siya ni mima.) with Dr. Ayuyao naman, hindi na siya masyado pa nag-comment, mga corrections na lang yung binigay. Thankfully.

Hai... It's still the first month of this year and a lot of things had already happened. .

but before I go to my default mood of melancholy, i-share niyo naman kung ano ang new year's resolution/s niyo?

Ako I don't have one. Hindi ko naman kasi nasusunod. Sayang lang yung effort ko ng pag-iisip kung anong pwedeng resolution ko.. Haha.. saka I don't think it's ideal to still wait a new year to change for the better. Everyday I think is a great opportunity naman to change a behavior towrds the better.

Di ba?? =)