sa araw na ito..

Ang araw na ito..


today is a very special day kasi birthday ng aking one and only sis.. (take note, hindi kami blood-related.) hehe.. anyhow..

I've known her for umm..how many years na nga ba?? I can't quite put my finger into it.. memory gap nga naman oo.. but anyhow, she has been a real blessing in my life. Kagaya nga ng sinabi ko before sa texts, if my everyday here on erth is already a blessing, then her coming into my life is already a miracle.. as well as all the other special people in my life diba.

So sis, Annel, Annelvie, Amvie.. whatever they call you. Happy happy birthday my darling sister.

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Sa araw na ito ay umattend ako/kami ng seminar with former Dean Marco as the guest speaker.. siyempre sobrang saya ko di ba. Kasi crush ko talaga siya. At alam ata iyon ng buong Integrity. So?. He's really magaling naman talaga.. at andami ko sanang gustong i-recap with regards to everything na sinabi niya pero mostly ang tumatak sa kin na sinabi niya is, kung papasa ako or kami ng board exam, it's not because of all the reviews we've done and all (siyempre with its help but not entirely), it's simply because we deserve it. WE effing DESERVE IT!!!!!!!

Do i feel like I deserve to pass the board? OO naman. I want to stay positive from now on that I will pass the board.. pero siyempre, at the back of my head, there's still that lil voice murmuring 'what if hindi...what if you fail...' pero i'll try my best to keep that disgusting thought away.

I am positive. POSITIVE.


pero feeling ko medyo jinx na i'm already talking about the boards eh I haven't graduated pa nga.. hahahaha...

Ga-graduate ba ako??


Yan ang hindi ko pa alam... *stares blanky* haha..

kapalpakan at iba pa..

Panapananaw lamang..



Sa dinami-dami ng errors na pwedeng i-commit sa pinili kong propesyon, hindi siguro talaga maiiwasan na kung minsan (huwag naman sanang maging madalas) na makagawa ng mabigat na pagkakamali.

Naiinis ako sa sarili ko kung bakit hindi kayang higupin ng utak ko ang lahat ng imporamasyong kailangan ko habang buhay.

Nakakainis na may hanggan ang lawak ng kaisipan ng tao. Pero hindi ko rin naman pwedeng kwuestyunin ang mga bagay-bagay na ganoon kalalim. Naniniwala ako sa Taas at alam kong may dahilan ang bawat bagay.

Nakakalungkot lang, at nalulungkot ako at naiinis sa sarli ko na sa bawat kapalpakan ko sa linyang ito, buhay ng tao ang nakasalalay.

Palagi kong sinasabi na gusto ko ito,. na masaya ako sa direksyon na 'to. Na maalaga akong tao. Pero siguro nga, bubot pa ako. Hindi pa sapat ang kaalaman.. mahina.. mabuway.

Sana isang taon mula ngayon matatag na ako at karapat-dapat sa posibleng propesyon ko.

Gusto kong isigaw sa mundo, sa lahat ng tao kung gaano ang katangahang naipamalas ko sa araw na ito.. pero huwag na. Mag-iiba pa ang tingin nila kay 'Ghie'..

Tae di ba.

Sa yo, hindi mo ito mababasa at kampante ako.. salamat po. Sa gamilyang haba ng pasensiya at pang-unawa. Ang laki na ng utang ko sa iyo.

Chie-chie..tandaan natin. Enero bente, dos mil nuwebe..

happy new year!

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!

woo0o0o0o!!!

Sow how's everyone?? gawd.. I effing miss this. This. Exactly. Being able to pour out my non-sense blabs about my very chaotic yet beautiful life.

I wish everyone a happy and prosperous new year!!!

hmm.. short recap of what has been happening to moi:

My new year was a blast!! I mean its first day was.. I spent my January 1st with the people who are real close to my heart next to my mom and dad. Tapos nag exchange gifts pa kami! yahoo!! Siyempre yung paghahati ng taon nasa bahay ako at mega nanonood sa mga bonggang fireworks. I left the house at around 2 in the morning to go to Ate Beth's house.

and then all the fun ended. Classes had resumed, sadly. Hahaha.. Our first week, supposedly,
we would act as student c.i's sa mga level 1 students. Pero hindi yun ang nangyari. Darn talaga. Bale naka-set na kasi yung isp ko last year pa na magtuturo ako sa CMC West. But no. Sayang yung pera ko na nagastos sa pagpapaprint ng sandamakmak na requirements para dun sa nursing educ na yon. Pati effort ako!..Wala na. Pinull-out kami for some reason I still couldn't quite figure at nag-duty kami instead sa Cavie Naval. Ayos naman except for the fact na we were under real TOXICITY. Ang daming requirements anak ng tinapa.. Pero we're real thankful that Ma'am Gariza was real malambing with her 'girl..' term of endearment whenever she tries to call our attention.. "Oi girl yung charting mo asan na?" .. "girl yung mga meds ngayong twelve ha..".. "girl lahat ng gamot sa E-Cart gagawan niyo ng drug study ha.."..."girl....girl...girl..." By the end of our duty, I was effing sure I am a GIRL. hahahaha.. But no kidding, she's a sweetie naman pala.. I was thinking of the opposite.

Anyhow, so yun nga, and then yesterday we attended the seminar of Patience which was also held in GT. Without bitterness (although I do have the latter in me) maganda yung over-all seminar nila. Except may maingay talaga sa likod ng stage.. grabe. Hindi siguro sila aware na dinig sila talaga sa harap.. prolly yung mga C.I's sa back area, hindi sila aware dun. We were not given evaluation sheet. Most of us in our section at least. *glares*

The highlight for me of that effing seminar was not even when my dearest loved ma'am ada gave her closing remarks (I applaud though Patience for giving that part to ma'am Ada. We were talking on our table na parang naiiyak siya dun sa last part ng speech niya. hehe..) but when we were to go home na. Lmao!!! Sinabay kami ni Dean sa karuna niya. At dahil siyempre makapal ang mukha namin, nakisabay kami ng bonggang bongga. And what made me real joyous is dahil sa front seat nakaupo si mam ada. Shemay ang babait nila. Mega-watt smile of course si mam and she was even apologetic sa min kasi ihahatid pa daw siya ni dean.. parang sorry for delay ganun. Grabe! Eh samantalang okay nga lang kahit sa kanila pa mismo siya ihatid! hahaha.. at pinag-usapan namin ni Arianne yung LV bag ni mam ada. I think and I'm pretty sure orig yung bagelya niya. Tae.. napakamahal nun! Hindi risonable ang presyo. Just think, ang halaga ng bagelya na yun ay makakabayad na sa buong tuition fee ko ngayung second sem, kasama na pati review!!!! Sabagay..kung-afford niya naman di ba.. heheh..

So today, as I'm typing this up, kakatapos pa lang ng defense namin sa thesis. Shemay!!! Thank God!!! May mga corrections lang pero ok naman yung whole presentation. Mabait yung panel namin na si Dr. Quinio (umm..bilas siya ni mima.) with Dr. Ayuyao naman, hindi na siya masyado pa nag-comment, mga corrections na lang yung binigay. Thankfully.

Hai... It's still the first month of this year and a lot of things had already happened. .

but before I go to my default mood of melancholy, i-share niyo naman kung ano ang new year's resolution/s niyo?

Ako I don't have one. Hindi ko naman kasi nasusunod. Sayang lang yung effort ko ng pag-iisip kung anong pwedeng resolution ko.. Haha.. saka I don't think it's ideal to still wait a new year to change for the better. Everyday I think is a great opportunity naman to change a behavior towrds the better.

Di ba?? =)