don't go far off..

I asked Annel to email some of her favorite poems--


and I fell in love with this one. =)


Don't Go Far Off


Don't go far off, not even for a day, because --
because -- I don't know how to say it: a day is long
and I will be waiting for you, as in an empty station
when the trains are parked off somewhere else, asleep.

Don't leave me, even for an hour, because
then the little drops of anguish will all run together,
the smoke that roams looking for a home will drift
into me, choking my lost heart.

Oh, may your silhouette never dissolve on the beach;
may your eyelids never flutter into the empty distance.
Don't leave me for a second, my dearest,

because in that moment you'll have gone so far
I'll wander mazily over all the earth, asking,
Will you come back? Will you leave me here, dying?

 -- Pablo Neruda

aloha..lo..

I would like to finally say something about my life:

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Gee. My brain is empty. (not a news!!)

anyhow, let's see.. hmm. I would try my might to capture my thoughts, piece by piece..

~ I am currently listening to acoustic version of Bluer than Blue. Why? Just because.

~ I miss certain people. Just certain creatures. Darn. Waaahh.. I misssssss yoouuuuuuuuuu.

~ Maj did her recall regarding PRC filing. My thoughts :Chaos..Chaos...chaos. And more chaos.

~ Review is still on-going. I am ambivalent. And I know, it's not a very positive thing.

~ I can't freakin wait to get a job and work my ass off and earn huge bucks and BUY souls!!!! argh!

~ I need to pray more often. I need more faith. I need strength. I need..I need..

~ Today was a so-so day. I studied OB and to our, i dunno if you could really call it luck, the exam was canceled. Nice. (not!)

~ People is better than no people.

~ So I told my people last night that if ever I would have to undergo a surgery, they should make sure that their asses are available to be beside me because I need them to be strong for me and to hold my hand, if ever. They do not have the right be scared in front my face because I swear to God I will kill them.

~ and some people should grow up. Seriously.

~ and yes, this is my own space, my blog, my thoughts. It's only fair that I get to be self-centered here. A narcissists on my own little world. Bleh.

dot dot dot

~So it has been literally ages since the last time I have gone mad and wrote something on here. Haha. . Well, I'm lucid now so I'm grabbing this rare moment to finally update you guys about me. I know you could care less, really, but still. Lemme. haha..


For starters, after 4 long years of agony and suffering and sleepless nights, I finally graduated. Yay me! I was even able, to my shock, snag a performance award. Not that I'm bragging and rubbing it all of your face, but yeah, it was the infamous Best Performance in Head Nursing. Can you effing believe that? I mean I as well, was like 'Gee?!! holy freaking cow!!!' But it was all cool and fun and warm and all that feelings at once. Of course I gave back all the Praise and glory to Him. Without Him I'll be nothing.. a protozoan or bacteria or virus or fungi even. I also tried to express my gratitude to those people who probably had gone mad as well and voted me on that deliberation day. I owe you po BIG time. Thank you.


oh and to say that a LOT of things has happened to me this past few weeks would definitely be my understatement of the year. It was worse that a roller-coaster ride.. more than that.


I have committed such HUGE mistakes and I've been pretty much nothing except a disappointment to the people I've been trying to please, I guess.. well yeah. Just then that I realized how much regret one is be capable of having.. Seriously. I even had suicidal ideation. See?!!!! It was THAT BAD.


But thankfully, with His guidance and help and all the other people who have been nothing but a helping hand, I came out of the storm alive..and kicking asses!! ahaha... and I could never be thankful enough. I literally owe my life to them.. gawd.


I am still busy doing Board review but it's all cool. I haven't felt that taxed yet so yeah.. I'm not yet complaining.


As of this moment, I am happy and contented. Cheerios!!!